The rearview mirror

You know that saying what's old will be new again?  I think I mostly associate that with fashion trends but as I look back in my writings I see how relatable it is to my political and societal injustice views. 

In the days following January 6, 2021, my journal entries include the following perspectives; When I look back on my legacy, will I have done all that I could to serve humanity?  This is a powerful tool in reducing my anger.  When I look through this service lens it's clear what my beliefs are and thus my behaviors must reflect.  This clarity requires actions devoid of righteous & lowly judgement of others for not following.  I will have to continue to work hard to banish my judgement and my why as weapons.  The mirror of anger is a powerful extinguisher of my own.  It is not an antidote to the justice that must be carried out nor is it a righteous morale ground that I look down from.  Rather, I believe it is an invitation to look deeply within.  Just as I don't have to hate me to change myself, I do not have to hate to generate change in the world.  

I write a lot about lens and mirrors - I guess that might be the trend I participate in.  What is to be seen and what is reflected.  Today, in the midst of global genocides I feel my anger and judgement in a more profound and permanent way then I ever conceived in those prior journal entries.  And now I desperately wish my why was a useful weapon.